It has been 2 months....... And everyday I fall in love with my baby boy. My heart just fills up with so much understanding, empathy, compassion, admiration, love, love, love. I want to cry sometimes when he looks at me and smiles and coo's ....... I could watch him sleep around the clock. I wish I could experience the sweet dreams he has almost everyday. Once he is in a deep sleep, he smiles and then he chuckles into belly laughs. It is the cutest thing I have ever seen. He leaves me paralyzed in astonishment when he imitates my voice or inflections. He is so proud! I could see it in his face. The funny thing is, I hear him and understand exactly what he is talking about. He makes me realize what is really important, what is truly a priority. I don't mean loosing myself, what I do or abandoning my needs. But he makes me realize I am not what I do, I am who I am. And I love the person I am with him. He is truly making me want to be the best I can be, for me , for him, for all of us. I just hope he feels the same way about me and his daddy when he gets older....... awe man......does he really have to get older. :) Just kidding. I am looking forward to this chapter. Love you Marls
